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VOLUME 7, ISSUE 2

The Soulful Living Open Journal

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April 2000

This month, it will be two years since my father passed away. I am frightened because, as time goes by, the memory of his physical presence grows farther and farther away. Today it is harder to see his beautiful, glowing soul, hear his melodic voice, and feel his warm embrace than it was just one year ago. And, I know, as time goes on, these physical memories will become even more faint. I suppose if the memories were as vivid today as they were two years ago that the pain would be even greater. If there is a positive, I guess it is the knowledge that time and distance help to heal the pain. But, what I wouldn't give to be able to give my father one last hug, have one last glance, and hear one last note of his sweet voice. I am comforted knowing that my father's light will forever live in my heart. No time or distance can ever take that away from me.

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In this chaotic world filled with disappointments; one right after another, we begin to feel hopeless...voiceless. "My voice doesn't matter enough to change anything. One voice carries little weight for change in this world." We all think this at one time or another. If every voice would speak at once...what thunder we would hear! Strike up a storm that rumbles with intent. -Jane

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My Thought for the Day: "Old age gives you the wisdom of experience, and being young gives you the insight of innocence." - Pauline Gates

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The spiritual life is a reaching out to our innermost self, to our fellow human and to our God. 

Henri J.M. Nouwen

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It is a rainy day today and one that brings a sense of peace to the world. As I sit here listening to a Piano CD of such pieces of music as Endless Love, Minuet in G, Fur Elise, The Rose, and even Smoke Gets in Your Eyes...I am calmed by the combination of writing, reflecting, bathing in music, and even meditating through these mediums.

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I feel depressed because I have not taken advantage of the opportunities I was given in life. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow.

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MY DIARY: I do love this Site and I know I will be reading alot of the info you have shown me but I would like to add something I love writing in my own journal nothing will ever take the place of my Diary ~*~*~* Ann ~*~*~*

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Most journaling books say to hand write materials...my hand writing is slow and very poor looking so I"'m goin to try and just use a word processor. I do have a bit of a problem with the attitude that journaling is important...what did illiterate cultures do...were they just misearble repressed humans? As with most other things, journaling will not be the panacea for all people

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Poem titled-Awarness >I know that you can't love anyone else until you love every inch of yourself >I know that people tend to do things you disagree with,but it's you who gets angry >I know that self-love is developed with time, patience and understanding >I know that it takes more energy to hate someone than it does to love them >I know that material things look pretty, but it doesn't create who you are >I know that beauty lies within,& the outer appearence is only a vechile to carry you through >I know that you only feel the need to be better than someone, if you really feel like less >I know that your friends become your family over time >I know that times can get hard >I know that you'll always make it through those hard times >I know that you can't master anyone's mind until you master your own >I know that people can be cruel >I also know ypu can re-create what goes on around you >I know that love can hurt, but time heals the wounds >I know that your thoughts create your experience >I know that because people yell or get angry, it doesn't mean they don't love each other >I know that you must speak the words the way you'd like to hear them >I know that times can bring lonliness, yet you can go within to seek comfort >I know there's One creator of life, and once you realize this, it's easier to stop judging and labeling

May you find Peace and Unity Within Kristine Reedy Kristinereedy@savage-international.com 

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My thoughts for today is the following I am a writer but I need to find the time to do the things I love the most.And that is writing From :Diariest

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Kristie Harris

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Thank-you for this website. What a lovely idea. I look forward to hearing from others who are seeking ways to live more soufully. I was in a "Teamworks" Group that met once a month for two years. We met to talk about goals and priorities and to encourage, support and challenge each other. That group broke up and I miss it. I wonder if there is a way to do that sort of thing online.

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Thought For The Day, "Few have far to go, the rest of us are just hanging out."

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It has been a good day. I have connected, have met with people and discussed issues of importance. I am learning and growing. I am listening to my own inner wisdom. I am learning to slow down and get quiet when it is necessary. The most important gift that I can give today is appreciation and acknowledgement.

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I have been on a long journey always striving to move forward. I know the whispers of heaven are calling to me, yet I do not listen. My heart aches for understanding and support and yet I feel so alone. My mind always thinking, & planning spins out of control for concepts not yet internalized, for they are only small inspirations of what I do not know. Can you hear my cries, my desperation for understanding, my hope for acceptance. 

So I will keep truding along the only way I know how, with faith as my sheild that someday it will I will reach the ultimate goal and with hope that I will someday reach the top of the mountain and there I will rest and be grateful for all that I have and endured. 

God Bless You and Yours Diane sinueth@e-machines.net 

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This is my first time at this site. It is beautiful, not just the design, though that is wonderful also, but what everyone has to say. I am 19 years old and I have just started my soul search. Though it has always been there, I have never been so aware of it as now. Before I had always lived in a world of "me" and "I". I have learned or should I say remembered that we are all connected in this life and it is a wonderful thing. If you really feel with your soul you can feel the power. It is beyond words. We are a part of something so precious it could almost make you cry. And the not knowing of exactly what it is all about is wonderful and exciting. I use to think that this world was harsh and cruel and nothing matter. I even tried suicide a few times, but one day I had a wake-up call and realixed everything. How precious we ALL are. We must treat everyone like we would want to be treated because they are us. I am you, you are me and that is grand.

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Sometimes life can be a pain at this time I have found refugei n two things My Saviour Jesus Christ and my diary *Diariest*

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I remember my father in who he was and not how he was. I remember the smell of him and the way he was a grump in the mornings. The feel of his unshaved cheek against my soft one. The smell of resin reminds me of him and his surfboards. The sound of the turning surf brings him back to me. The feeling of sand stuck on my toes. The sight of my brother and the way he laughs. My dad has been dead twelve years and I still miss him. SBOT

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Trudging through the middle class ennui and tedium that composes the majority of these posts I do have to wonder how Online Diary sites manage to create such a wonderfully homogeneous entity or writers and readers. The blanket grey wash of vaguely New Age philosophy and belief in the omnipotence of "creative activities" creates an exquisite tedium that begs the question, "So What?"

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Don't know much about feng shui, but my sewing corner did not feel right. After 6 years, I turned it around last week and WOW. I've been sewing like crazy. It just feels right now. It's wonderful. What else can I turn around in my life as I near 53 and retirement. Joan Lowder

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I, John, always wanted to know what the unresolved discontent was in me. I was filled with anxeity, from as long as I can remember, I was scared of everything. My spirituality and faith were words that covered only the surface of my life. Things happened, an accident at work, an anxeity disorder, a depression. I call it the black hole. Shaking all night and breathing so hard during the day that my chest hurt. Spending 3 weeks at a partial hospital program led to a decision to go to work again part time.I can not write anymore about my trek back to reality, it would be to long. What I will say is that now I am closer to Jesus Christ than everbefore, I know he is alive. I believe in all my heart that that incident in my life needed to happen. I couldn't see it than, but now I do. I have changed and continue to get better.
E-mail me if you want to talk about similar incidents- santana@sunlink.net

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I feel like I am nothing. Why doesn't he know that I would give hime everthing I have just to be with him? My body, my heart, my soul. But he will never know my feelings. I cannot tell him. I will not tell him.

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Brandon Hamiltion if you are reading this I hope you are happy for ruining my life. 

*Kate* (I would have given him the world.) 

But I want somthing else to get me through this semi-charmed kind of life. Seriously.

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Brandon Hamilton. My one true love and he turned me aside like a piece of trash. Even my dog left me---for Ina! Oh why is life so semi-charmed? 

*Kate*

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Dear Kate I feel your pain. in time I'm sure you will see that you are much better off without this person in your life.Someone else wonderful is waiting out there for you -- this person will cherish you and your love. *Diarist*

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Kate, my heart goes out to you. i've been there too. - your friend

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I enjoyed the most lovely day in my garden today. A day spent truly in the present momnet... hearing the needs of each plant spoken to me and tending to those needs. gardening is wonderful for the soul.

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My life is so incredibly lucky and blessed. What did I do in my life to deserve this. I feel sometimes like I am waiting for the other shoe to drop and all will be gone/ruined.

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I have calmed something previously unresolved in me. I have hushed the clamor of my clamoring for company, of me betraying myself, again and again with fear of being alone with my thoughts. Tonight, I was compelled to pull up a seat and join myself for dinner. We had a lovely, unhurried, and soulful time.

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From Diariest To Other Writers 

I live in Ohio and it seems so hard to find other writers I need inspiration It seems so hard to sit down and relax and do some writing that is something I love to you .I have left messages on the message board but I can never find other writers Where are you diariest/writers if you are out there email me : diariest@suite101.com or check out my web site :http://writerscloset.homestead.com ~*~*~*~*~*~*I need inspiration~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~ 

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My thought focuses on many people. I recently felt this quote I found can relate to so many people but mostly, I am referring to teenagers, who are still growing up. 

"The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good." 

This quote means so much to me because today, in this world, so many people are judgemental and are inconsiderate of others feelings. 

Take this quote into mind. Use it. It will help down the road.

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I'm on a spiritual quest. I started this quest when I turned 50. I'm still a novice, a beginner. Each day I discover more about myself, some things that I like and some things that I would like to change. I just discovered this location today. You can be sure I'll be back. Life can be such a wonderful journey. 

Christie

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it all begins with a tiny step. a breath. to breathe in commitment and exhale contentment. but the breath needs filtering...sort of an alien experience...like being from another planet. We must filter the breath to find the commitment. Breathe it in, fully, slowly, purposefully and hold it there so it nourishes the heart, heals the wounds. Exhale contentment. Again and again. Stop breathing and the result is obvious. I ask myself, am I ready to breathe the purity of commitment? Pollution is a habit. Time for me to work on change. Breathe.

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Today I want to share my thoughts with you and they are very personal but I figure that it is a way to help others as well. I lost my sister a few weeks ago and she was a young woman, talented and full of spirituality and even though Im still in shock at the whole thing I have come to realize one important thing and that is to enjoy life and the gifts that offers us each day. Some people have the chance to travel to different places and they take that for granted when there is nothing more magnificent than seeing the wonders of the world but with the eyes of the spirit. My advice to everyone is to enjoy the wonders of life, enjoy the sunset, enjoy the beach, enjoy a simple dinner with your family, enjoy a romantic evening with your partner, just enjoy with gusto and wondering eyes. Remember that life is a gift and we should love every minute with have with sincere love. 

Ana Maria

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Im a simple woman who happens to think life is a wonderful gift most human take for granted and it shouldnt be that way. Today watching the tv show Everyday Elegance with Colin Cowie I come te realize that some people have incredible blessings that they should be thankful about and it came to me how we dont put a bit of beautifullness to our lifes. 

I admire Colin because he is a simple and elegant man who knows how to enjoy his work and his life style but we dont need to have much money to do so, we can enjoy life even if we are middle class people. We can make dinners more beautiful just we a touch of flowers and color napkins to our tables, also we can enjoy lunch at the patio from time to time or may be eat at the kitchen making it creative and pretty looking. We just get to wrapped up with work and
stress when we should be enjoying the beauty of life. 

Angelina Bach

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I walked along the beach early this morning -- something I've just begun to do again - after a long time away. I've missed this time of reflection. I wonder why I've allowed myself to ignore this part of my environment. . . I live less than 200 yards from the place that brings me supreme peace and gratitude. . . I've allowed life to get in the way. . . I look at the shells as I walk, daring not to touch them all, for touching them creates a connection and to throw one back because it is not "perfect" is like throwing a person away who is not "perfect." Why do we do that to people? Judge them? Label them? Ignore them? That is not our role on this earth. . . You see, the shells are us. Broken, weathered, withered, glistening, and forever rolling with the tides - riding out the storms, sparkling in the newness of a day, waiting to connect with someone who comes along and touches us. . . . ~ a Florida beach walker

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I don't know if Im living in the wrong century but I still believe in knights in shinning armor. To me a knight and shinnig armor is a man who is first of all sincere, tender, valient, inteligent, loyal and sentimental, maybe someone like this is hard to find but I know he is alive some place on this earth. 

I was about to leave my quest of ever finding me, after my sister's passing to heaven I began to experience fear, an incredible fear of failure. I still have that fear but something inside of me tells me to go on with my quest. Ever since I can remember I have been waiting for this modern knight and even though I had more hopes before, Im not ready to let go of this dream. 

Shoul I stop dreaming of finding this true love or should I go on, this is my question to God. If someone could inspire me with an answer my life will be a bit easier. 

Where is my knight and shinning armor? 

Ana Maria

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Being one with God means walking the road less traveled in life. Try it sometime it is absolutely wonderful to experience. -Melissa

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I have nothing profound to say. Though I want to have something lasting profound to leave behind me. I have lived over half my life and the next or the rest of my life I wonder what is expected of me or can I live for me for once. I want my girls to know that I love them and that they are my life. Children do that for some reason, make you live for them. I wonder if my mother lived for me. I miss my mother even today. Thirty years has passed since her death, and the pain and the void is still there. Will there be that void there for my girls. I don't want a void to be there. I want a pleasure there in knowing that I was a good mother. Im not a typical mother, Im like a sister, a friend to my girls. They tell me so many personal things that no mother ought to hear. That is the way I want it, I want them to be comfortable. I don't judge them. I protect them. Im entering another phase of my life. Thursday will tell if I will be here to make a difference in the world. Its going to be a day Iv waited for for months. Maybe I won't be alone anymore, I want to love again before I die. I want to laugh, love, and share life with somebody special. This rose wants to bloom again.

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May God Bless You, "Rose"

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I am waiting for my Knight in Shining Armor -- I know that he is out there and that the Universe will present him to me when it is time. I will wait till then...

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Life was made for living.

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If you want to succeed you have to believe you can.

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It is early morning, and I've just nursed my three- and-a-half month-old baby girl and put her back to bed. What a gift from God she is! As I struggle with other challenges in my life -- being a working mom and new parent, trying to still find time to be a loving wife, and searching for a way to permanently loose a considerable amount of weight -- I need to remember how very lucky I am to have this tiny, precious being in my life. Sometimes when I gaze at her I still can't believe she is "my daughter." There's nothing like the birth of child to add clarity to your life; I'm no longer confused about what the priorities should be in my life. I need only look at Kaylee, and there is my answer. -- Karen

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I'm so excited that I found this site. This is going to be a neat place for me to open up and write down all my thoughts.

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Today was boring an i dident get to see my boyfriend

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Dear Diary: 

I started a new job yesterday, I was transfered to another department of the building I work in, another transition to go to. First I lose my sister and now one month after I have a new job, so many beginnings in such short time. I feel like a fish out of the sea in this new job, it will take getting use to since I was for many years in the other department.

I need to find time for myself and for my healing process, I need to do some interior work in me so I will let go of my pain and also all the new feelings Im feeling of fear and somewhat panic. I need to meditate and do breathing exercises, I have heard of Tai Chi, some people say is extraordinary for the mind, soul and body, so I will go in search of some video o book that will help me with some simple exercises to start a new routine. I know that right now I need to focus in me and my healing. 

Ana Maria 

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What does it mean to let yourself down? What do u do to be a disappointment to yourself? I feel that I have the key to unlock the doors to these questions. But I keep the answers close to me so I don't disappoint or let down those close to me. I'm afraid to let them see the truth. I know that if I was happy with the person who I am there would be no reason to hurt others or myself. It's not easy to be friends with the person you have to look at in the mirror day after day. I want to find joy in who I am. I will find joy in who I am. But it will take time, patientce, and courage to face the reality. I will emerge from the cacoon that now incases the old me to emerge and become the beautiful butterfly that is aching to get out and experience the the old world with new wings.

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~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* From:Diariest I wish that I could find a place where I could go where other diariest meet such as I .I long for someone like me that like to write in a diary or journal it helps a great deal to write your thoughts on the pages I have written in 62 diaries and I long for more I love to write and I still wish that I could find someone I really need someone that we can share our ideas if anyone want to share over internet Then email me:diariest@suite101.com.I will email you back and we can share ideas over the internet female or male. From Diariest To ALL FELLOW DIARIEST ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* 

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i haven't written for awhile and i really miss it. i've felt like something has missing in my life and i hope i can figure out what it is because i feel so down. i feel like i'm all alone although tere are so many people surrounding me.i also feel distant from god the one thing i reelly need in my life right now. ijust prey that god can feel this emptiness i'm feeling. and i can start shinig through.

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I think I've found a friend. This is my first time at this site. I hold onto the thought that "we are where we are supposed to be". I have felt an uneasiness for so long. I yearn for feeling "at peace". What am I missing? I feel so lonely even though I am so busy with life. 

I want to be happy with someone. I long to love someone. I have so much love to give. God, are you preparing that perfect person for me? I will be patient then.

My soul longs for - rainy days - walks in the woods - canoe trips - mornings in the mountains - walks on the beach -travels to see God's wonders - laughter - friends/family - a good book - moonlight - sunrise and sunsets - a garden to toil in - a life to love! Love and God Bless, Deb 

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hello, my name is lori jean. i hope noone ever takes a breath for granted. we are all here today to experience what it is to be human, and to error is human. so if your having one of those days where nothing seems to go your way or if your constantly dwelling on your mistakes in life, i want you to stop right now! and remember everyone has the capability to be hitler or mother mary teresa. all these superficial images we all have of some people, for instance, either someone is just plain good or just plain rotten, are very wrong. just as in yin and yang, there's a little evil in the good and a little good in evil. it's what makes the world go round. one of my biggest mistakes in life changed me for the better, what i mean is that my son was an unplanned pregnancy or an "accident" as it is most commonly refered to. but everytime i look into his big blue eyes i'm reminded of what unconditional love is all about. sometimes i am so overcome by his love i cry. without my "mistake" i would not be living the good life of a loving mother and a loving housewife, instead i would probibly be somewhere totaly different doing the opposite of what i do here everyday which is try to spread as much love as i can muster, and i am so thankful for that. 

believe it or not so many people have been shamed growing up, even in little ways, some are ashamed or embarrassed to be themselves. some children think that thier parents only love them when they are not acting like themselves, mabey the parent wants the children to act a certain way or yell when the children are harmlessly having a little fun, or some parents try to live out thier own dreams through thier children and that is also very wrong. we are all put here on earth to be our own unique selves, how are children to know this if they grow up thinking noone will love me if i act like myself, so usually they take over thier parents personalities since they know them the best and do the same to thier children. it's the great circle of shaming, and it needs to stop! the only problem: how do you teach everyone living on this planet that we are all different from everybody else and there is nothing wrong with that.

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Today is hard for me. I am going through some painful decisions of letting go of my youngest child and helping her to go on her way. It has come to a point that she needs her own place and I hate to let her go. She is now 21 years old and it has been really hard living in the same house. She is an adult and she needs to be on her own. I never thought that it would be so hard. I know that we raise them to let them go and I do want to, but I worry that something bad could happen to her and I just want to protect her. She and I have been fighting a lot lately and I know it is because she wants to "do her thing," and I am probably in the way. How do you let go and still feel that everything will be okay? 

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I love being able to come to this web to write all my thoughts down. I'm feeling so good today and I feel so welcome in this awsome world I hope everybody can see the joy in life as I do right now.

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July 11, 20000 This is truly one of the most beautiful sites on the web.It has much valuable information for the search for my inner self. Thank you. I will be returning again and again. Sending all of you light on your journey, Susan Toronto,Canada

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Feeling stuck in life with much anxiety and fear for the future, today was very rewarding. I took a day off from my redundant desk job (stuck in a cubicle) to just get things done that might help me not feel so stuck. This site was wonderful to visit and add to my file of bookmarks! 

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Hi I woke up today feeling good and I went for a run. But I am so tired now I just want to crash. I have so much to do and not a lot of time.

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Hi i'm feeling a lot better i actually feel like i have friends again. i went out with some old friends last night and it felt so good not to be alone. i've really been trying hard to tolerate my sister but it seems like the harder i try the more frusterated i get. i feel good and energetic althogh i'm kind of disapointed i didnt go run this morning. i hope everyone is having a wonderful day.

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Sometime life throws us a curve ball that we nevr could have expected. Just when we think we're headed in one direction... life takes another turn.  but maybe this turn is necessary on the path to geting to where we need to go.

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Hi I haven't writen for a while but I went out last night and it was really fun to do some things with my friends. i'm playing in a softball tournament this weekend and it's been a lot of fun. I'm playing with some guys who I didnt talk to much before but they've really turned out to be cool. Me and my sister are not understanding each other real well I just don't understand her. I'm so exited just to relax tonight. My grandmas coming over and she always brings joy to our house. I hope everybody has a nice night.

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Hi i'm feeling very tired today and my body is pretty worn out. i just got done playing in a softball tournament. i felt like i did pretty good but i don't understand why some people get so competative. its starting to rain outside and there is no where else i'd rather be than inside watching a good movie. i love the rain but i feel a little lonely i have my family and everything but sometimes i just want that soulmate to be with me. will i ever find that persoin i can spend the rest of my life with? how long do i have to wait although there are times i love just being by myself and not even thinking about anyone.

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sOMETIMES I FEEL SO HOPELESS. I HAVE SO MUCH IN THIS WORLD BUT IT SEEMS MY BODY JUST WON'T DO WHAT IT NEEDS TO. I FEEL LIKE ALL I'VE BEEN DOING IS EATING BUT I ALWAYS WANT MORE. MY WEIGHT IS ALWAYS ON MY MIND AND I GET SO SCARED OF GAINING WEIGHT EVEN THOUGH DEEP DOWN I KNOW MY BODY WILL BE FINE IF I GAIN A COUPLE POUNDS. I KNOW I'M BUAETIFUL NO MATTER MY SIZE.

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i love myself. i love that i am athletic. i love that i am good at most everything i try. i love that i'm not afraid to try new things. i love that i have a lot of friend. i love that i'm outgoing. i love that i'm independant. i love that i can be alone and still be happy. i love that i am never bored and can always find something to do. i love that i am able to work on things so i can always improve myself. i love that i love to run. i love that i'm srong. i love that i'm healthy. i love that i have such an awsome family. i love that i like to meet new people. i love that i'm not shy. i love that i'm able to do everything that i love to do. i love that i'm able to walk. i love that i'm able to talk and listen. i love that i'm smart. i love that i have a voice and i can use it. i love that i'm a women. i love having three sisters and being close to them. i love that i can help people out. i love that i can see. i love watching the seasons change. i love that i have food to eat. i love that i have a computer that i can share my thoughts on. i love that i can read. i love that i can hear. i love the sound of rain. i love to watch the rain. i even love to walk in the rain. i love that i love myself. i love god. i love that i have angels watching over me. i love that i am proud of who i am. i love my hair. i love my body. i love my eyes. i love this world i live in. i love that i am able to grow each day in all areas of my life. i love the lessons i learn each day. but above all i love myself. 

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Thanks to our spiritual dimension, which can be defined as the aspect of ourselves that does not believe in limitations because it does not experience them, we can challenge the most basic boundaries that enclose us. -Deepak Chopra ¤Matilda¤

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this is the first time I am writing here. I am so glad this site exists. my journey of insight began before i was even aware of it. lately though i have had to notice. going through a seperation and trying to learn to love myself for the first time, it is hard work. the more i love myself the more i realize how so many of the men i chose did not. the hardest thing i am having to face is the reality that some people are so damaged that no amount of love and understanding can heal them. they are so closed off to the love that does exist in this world, it is really sad. Especially, when you care about them. i read somewhere that sometimes you just have to cross the bridge and move on, when others are ready they will do the same. tabli

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I am so glad to be alive. This world is such a beautiful place.

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I haven't called my husband for a month. How can i ignore his selfcentered behavior towards me. How can people be so cruel as to not be available to their loved ones when thy are sick. I get so lonely though, no one to do things with. My friends are either married or dating seriously and have limited time for me. I am so scared of ending up alone all my life, yet I am not willing to be hurt and ignored by someone who claims to love me. I need some single friends. Tabli

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Hi i hope everybodies having a good day. i'm really trying to teach myself how to type and i'm hoping if i type to this site everyday i'll be able to learn soon.

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Diariest here .Just thanking God that I am here my writing is getting better I am learning and understanding myself at one point in my life I was just writing but now I am writing because I need to chance and I love to write my thoughts in the pages of my diaries.There is nothing like it.

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My one question today is will i ever find that one guy thats right for me? i feel like i'm all alone in a world so big. How am i ever gonna find that one guy that's right for me. Please god just help me to find the right guy for me at the right time.

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Today I was thinking about my life and trying to get things in order....like that would ever happen...but I was thinking about what the thing was that caused the most grief in my life so I could better deal with it...and I came to some conclusions:

1. It is very easy to be hurt when you care about someone more than they care about you.

2. Its always good to have something to do when you are angry. Channeling excess anger and energy into something good is a good idea.

3. You can't always depend on people just because they say you always can.

4. Time can be both an evil and a blessing, and sometimes both at once.

5. Sometimes is harder to NOT do anything than to do something.

6. Being lonely is worse than being poor.

Thats all for now....I'm feeling pretty low on the totem pole today.

Peace and Strength, ~Annie 

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What do you do when the only people who are able to dry your tears are the ones that are making you cry? ~Annie

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hi everybody hope everybody is full of joy.

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I wake up with a fresh, new, positive start in the morning.. but then my brother comes along and it seems the day is ruined. I hate fights, I don't think I start it, but I can never remember, why the fights, how the fights... I want to love him, but why does he have to push me away or try to annoy me?

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Deep inside each of us, in places nobody likes to think about, lurk our gods and monsters. The distinction between the two can be a very fine line sometimes. Most people like to think of themselves as civilised, as rational beings incapable of the inhumanities, the atrocities, the sheer animalities which fill evening media reports. But in truth, we are the people whom we read about. We are those savages whom we see on the television nightly. No one can sink to a depth of evil that does not exist in the best of his brethren, nor can one rise to a goodness that cannot be found in the most despicable of his compatriots. The world is rife with the stench of Humanity's foulness, yet perfumed with her nobility. It is my most fervent wish that we survive as a species long enough, that the sweet fragrance of our Humanity, overpowers the sickly odor of it.

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As someone with a chronic disease, it sometimes hard to be upbeat and optimistic. And doing it alone, my Husband died 15 yrs ago, is not easy. But I remember the words of my Grandmother, "this to will pass, and God's love is never-failing," have helped me keep me sanity. I have journaled ever since my husband died, and I believe has helped me to keep perspective in this ever-changing world. Thank you for this "My Thoughts" site. Jeanne

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Writing in a public forum seems a little awkward to me but I'm sure it will, at some point, come easily. I've been writing and keeping a journal for years but have found myself closing off and not being honest with myself concerning my emotions. Not that my life is bad, just my interpretation is a bit skewed. Being content is one thing, happiness is another.

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Trying to fall easily through this life, sometimes I feel as if I am falling too fast. At other times I feel like I am just floating. As life goes on, though I feel I am falling farther from where I should be. Perhaps, this is why we die.

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It is such a wonderful thing to express yourself in words. To put on paper what is bottled up in your mind and your very being. I've only recently learned how rewarding it is to journal. This website allowed me to see that I am not alone in life's struggles. We all have circumstances to deal with and we are not alone. Life offers some very challenging situations. It's how we handle them is where our strengh lies. It's great to XPRS YRSLF! Peace!

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FOR GOD HAS NOT GIVEN US A SPIRIT OF FEAR, BUT OF POWER, OF LOVE, AND OF A SOUND MIND.

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Every now and again my sweetie and I go to the dog pound and look over the pups. We are in no position to have a dog just yet, but it's fun to day dream. We could have that Boston Terrier and name her Bubba Jean, or this here Basset Hound and call him Phipps. There are always little notes the pound staff likes to write about each dog. "Blackie likes to DIG!" Which means you can kiss those flower beds good bye. "Bashia is not good with children." Letting you know that with Basia you will be the lady with the fat, mean dog. The dog that makes all the neighborhood kids cry when she goes out for a walk. Todays favorite was a weenie dog named Tina who is "A nice old lady, but needs her teeth brushed." We keep going because, well, someday we will be able to get a dog that we love. And also because someday I hope to see a note on a kennel that says "Freckles likes to drag his behind on the carpet." That will be my favorite day!

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HI VALERIE! 

I just read your great interview with Salle Redfield, and needed to share a quote from one of Sonaya Roman's books, which relates to the creation of your wonderful web site! 

"When things happen effortlessly, and doors open, it is not only because you are on your own higher path, but you are weaving it into the higher vision for all mankind"! 

My life works like this all the time and I love it! I just do what Oprah told us in 1987 when I met her in Fort Lauderdale: "I totally listen to my inner voice guiding me, and I believe that is God talking to me"! "And if I have doubts about something, I don't do it"! 

THANK YOU FOR CREATING A FABULOUS WEB SITE! 

ANGEL HUGS! SusanADvorak@aol.com 

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It's been a busy day just like every day. How I would love to remove so much of the "clutter" from my life. It has been wonderful to discover peace within and to experience moments of peace away from all the noise. -- Just a thought:) P

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Is it ever too late to begin soul searching? Sometimes I feel that it is something that I should have started at least a half a lifetime ago. I know it is never too late and yet I can't seem to convince my inner self of that. The ups and downs, the quick mood swings; the knowing where I am and where I'm going, but wanting it to change and yet not to change. I want to be happy with the way it all is....but I feel guilty wanting it. And that makes for unhappiness. I need to learn how to soul search. Is it a reasonable quest.....can it really be learned? My quest is to find the answer to this and then apply what is learned. 

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It is never too late to search your soul for the answers you need to mold your life into what you want it to be. You have already taken the first step, which is realizing your desire to soulsearch and looking to start doing so. I congratulate you. It is a truely wonderful thing to do, and it really does have a very positive impact on your life and the lives of those around you. It has changed the way I look at the world. It can be learned if you are open to it. Its not something that can be learned by reading a book or following instructions...it comes from within. Best of luck to you.

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This is a quick, 5 minute entry. I feel I am being held back, financially...I applied for a job and they(my potential employers) have not gotten back to me...they are offering 9 dollars an hour for very monotonous factory work...but it is the money I need...not the tedium...so I have to put up with the tedium until I get back into classes to find out what *I* want to do, not what my English teacher or my dad wanted for me. I need the money to find a place of my own to explore the new aspects of my changing beliefs and not be judged by my dad, a Methodist minister. Anyone know of any way to intuitively pray or set up a sacred space to help the money situation along? Anything along those lines??? 

A soul-searcher, beginning all over again.

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Calgone take me away, better yet the shores of Lake MI. What a day of work. Took a resident to the doctor's office today and my soul has been sucked dry, my heart aches, angry and tired. Someone who lives where I work is not taking care of herself and she is much younger than most everyone else. If she continues in this self destructive path, which she says is going to happen anyway, she will lose one or both legs due to her own choices. I am mad at her. I know there is nothing I can do but talk to her and try to encourage her. Talked to our ADON before I clocked out now I'm just trying to unwind before I go home and enjoy the weekend. Feels good to sit here in the quiet and close my eyes. Feeling better already. Thanks, your friend, P :)

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Feeling somewhat confused. I feel bombarded with all these spiritual self-help books and websites that sound so wonderful! I was raised primarily as a Christian, but parts of Christianity don't work for me very well anymore. I am trying to decide what I truly believe about the Universe and the Deity. Feeling like I have to choose exactly what I believe before trying to find a mate...or maybe I should find a mate who is just as confused as I am and join him in his own spiritual quests. There is one young man who might fit the bill, but he does not really want to try to figure out his emotions and beliefs. It's like he wants to stay where he is, and this frustrates me, because ultimately, I am his friend, and I know all too well that I cannot personally "save him." Nor can I commit the soul-to-soul crime of forcing him to any particular religion. But he says he feels he has no real reason for living and he wants to commit suicide. This scares me a great deal...if any of you would want to offer prayers, I would appreciate it greatly... 

Anna, the soul-searcher beginning again

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There is no reasoning to the thing we call "life". What is the purpose of doing anything, we just die. To me dying is the best part of life, eternal happiness. There is no more hunger, no more being alone, no more being afraid, no more of anything that make people want to hurt their fellow man.

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Don't complain or fell sorry for yourself for the things you don't have. Look at what you do have and feel grateful.

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Being alone at night, when the room is dark and the silence overpowering-Reaching out to touch-only the emptyness-the longer and longer nights 

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I wonder if the rain is really God crying?

Anna Marie 

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I believe that there is a total reasoning in life. There are times when it seems debatable but in the longrun, there is a reason for every season. We are put here for a purpose, to fufill something, wheather we see it or not.

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!?From the soul?!.....my first glance into the mirror must have been taught chains surrounding my candy coated imagery loved for a material i shed my diamond and exist as the rough the soultry abyss thats been diluted so by this soluable of hatred and perplexing torment thats become my purgatory "livelyhood" trapped in the ever contorted oubliette of my own passion i long for that of another my favorite blanket no longer keeps me warm and i know no other will suffice ART1 albuquerque nm

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I have strayed from my spirituality in the past year and it has had a profound affect on my well-being. When I'm seeking the answers, when I need them the most, they're always retreating. But when I allow myself to let go, and just take each moment as it comes, they're so easily discovered. Patience with myself and with the world is essential but oh-so-hard to find.

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I have been going through self help for about the past year....sometimes willingly sometimes pushing myself somtimes dragging and kicking. I spoke with my sister today. It was nice. She seems to accept me for who I am. I definitely accept her for who she is, so why wouldn't she right? One day at a time.

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If there is a reason that we are living, why welcome death so soon? And why suicide? I know too many people that would rather commit suicide than try to live life in general...I have seen them fight the internal battle of who they are vs. society's idea of who they should be, and they would rather die via suicide than conform...I do not see either way as noble. I would rather live and be myself(whoever I am) and find someone who is just as wonderfully phenomenally wacky as I am(there's BOUND to be someone!). THAT to me is part of living!

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3 years ago I went suicidal, for many reasons. But through the support of friends and teachers I have come a very long way. As I look back on it all, I know it all happened for a reason. If I didn't go through what I went through, I wouldn't be as strong today and my life wouldn't be nearly as good. The shell of something might seem terrible and disasterous but with time, the deep inner core can be strenghtening. I'm not saying being suicidal is a good thing...it is NOT...but it *has* made me stronger.

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YES! I finally have the job I've wanted since July and the beginning of this month! It's factory work, yes, but I'll be more able to pay bills, etc.! Not that I want to do factory work forever; I don't. But still, it's better than low-income, stressful restaurant work. 

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I have vowed to follow my heart and follow my dreams... I know that when I am living "on purpose,"
God and the Universe will meet my needs.

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I vow to listen to my soul and live an authentic life.

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I started collecting quotes as a hobby back in Boston over 13 years ago. Now that I'm back "home" in Arizona I continue to collect...and share...quotes. Here are two recent acquisitions: "Work like you don't need the money. Love like you've never been hurt. Dance like no one is looking." And, "Never regret. If it's good, it's wonderful. If it's bad, it's experience."

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Everyone has a moment in history which particually belongs to him. It is the moment when his emotions achieve their most powerful sway over him, and afterward when you say to this person "the world today" or "life" or "reality" he will asume that you mean this moment, even if it is fifty years past. From "A Seperate Peace" by John Knowles.

I found this quote quite interesting. Its not every day someone actually thinks to that depth now is it? Kim

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I am 14 years old and even though I haven't been living long I have learnd a lot about life. I learned that everywhere in life there are going to people that down you, and say that you aren't good enough, so in life I learned that I have to give not only my all but more, but I know in the end I will make it. Even though I wan't to give up I keep going, cause I know that tomorrow the sun will shine a little bit brighter with that extra ray of light that will give me the hope that one day I will be on top. I could always cry when the world lets me down but I it hold in and us the hurt and anger as more power to do my best. I also have faith in god. Some say that prayer doesn't help and it is a wate of time. Some say that god won't love them because of what they have done in there life, but god will always love you. He doesn't hate the person he hates the sin. He will always be there to listen no matter what you have done. So pray to god and you will start to see that extra bright ray of sun in the morning. God bless!!!

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My thoughts..... HHHMMMMMM .... I have so many! You know the ones about how do I get through another day when the last several days have wiped me out. Or how do I out of bed when I want so desperately to still be deep asleep. 2 years ago, my life was not close to what I wanted life to be. I was unhappy, and fearful, and angry - that I didn't know what to change in my life. I didn't even know where to start or what was wrong. Then I found my faith and made a decision that changed my life. I guess you could say I have a motto I carry withing me concerning life ...... That decision was not to do ANYTHING that I wouldn't do if it did not make my soul sing. You see music makes my soul sing, the laughter of children, and long passionate thunderstorms, and waves lapping upon my feet - the joys that God put here to enjoy. These are some of the things that make my soul sing. I chose from now on to do only those things that I would do if I so rich that all of my friends and family were taken care of - what would i do? As I have answered that question over and over again - I have found that those are the things I do. Yes, it is hard, some of the things that make my soul sing require lots of hard work. Like school - I enjoy it so much but I have no social life. I love my job and everyone knows a job means responsibilty and commitment - even on days I would rather be on the beach. Somedays when I am in bed not wanting to leave the haven of blankets i must ask myself - So, will staying in bed make your soul sing?

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Dear Lord, please watch over my mother tonight. Please help her to heal. Please bring her back home to us soon.
We love her so much!

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the feel of the wind and watching the wind in the trees can give the greatest peace. sunny

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i feel so confused i have everything i could possibly want but there is that one thing i'm missing. all i could ask for is that one phone call from that one special person, we could have so much fun together. i just wish he wanted it as much as i do. well until we meet again i'll keep praying

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Today, I visited my omcologist for an update on my condidtion, which is an advanced melanoma. There was lot controversey about the diagnosis of my condition six years ago, but I have been very assertive about getting treayment and tried to put my bitter thoughts behind me. That said, I'm not having a particularly hard time dealing with idea if dying, but about the circumstances, ssuch as the loss ofvarious functions. I swrite in my dail journal but it doesn't seem to work. mombarb0224 2aol.com

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hi i'm just getting ready to leave for cross country practice i love running. it is so spiritual. i just wish more people would realize it. i'm starting another school year tomarrow but i'm kinda looking forward to it, i'm just going to enjoy each day and take it for what it's worth.

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Why do we allow ourselves to get so bogged down with trivia and the mundane? Why do we willingly become overly involved in another individual's drama and trauma? When will we realize what is truly precious and savor each moment? Relish the present; it's all we have!

Mae

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Be careful where you step...Watch what you eat...Sleep with a light and you got it beat.<p> Snow is gonna come...Frost is gonna bite,my old car froze up last night. I'm not gonna hang my head,because I could wake up in the morning dead. Dave

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Today the beginning of a three day holiday. Hot and must stay in. Catching up on laundry, got shopping done. Getting time to read and do internet. Got a date with husband tommorrow. THings look good. Renee'

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Everyday he came down the stairs. Everyday he said the same words to me: " Close those curtains". He did not like the sun coming in through the windows of the new sunroom I had built in his absence. " it makes the room hot" he kept commenting, though he never sat there and though the room was never hot. The moment the curtains were opened he would shout: " pull them down, pull them down" with a fervor as if something bad was about to come in through the
windows. HIS HOUSE was dark and cold, MY HOUSE was sunny and warm, a celebration of light and color and everything that was beauty and energy. 

It was not the state of our house, it was the state of our minds. His was a dark chamber, full of forbiddens and taboos. Things were inherently bad, shameful and evil.

I drew the curtains. I remembered the last time I was with Zack. He asked me: " Where are you now? ", " I see myself in a sunny place." I said. " Is it an island?" he inquired, somewhat worried. I looked around with my eyes closed as they are mostly when I am with him : " No, I do not think it is a place on the map, I think it is a place in the mind." , " Yes" he whispered to me and I could feel his smile " Yes, Now you are where you should be." 

I set down the thermostat of our central air conditioning. I AM FREE. I was born free, no one can put limits on my dreams , thoughts or emotions but me. The 'institution' maybe able to control various parts of my body and psyche at different times, but nobody can cover the sun that is shining inside me. No one can stop the songs in my heart, the colours of my mind. There is only one real prison in this world ; the one we capture ourselves in.

Jass60 

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I pray that my dreams will be realized in the very near future.

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My husband of eighteen years was killed in an auto accident last year. The resulting chaos and revelations have led me to a spiritual crises, the likes of which I have never known. There have been days when the pros of taking my life have outweighed the cons.

This is not a matter of missing my husband. It is the realization of how unhappy and abnormal our life together had been. I had adapted to and loved a man who could not love me in return, no matter how much I wanted to believe he cared.

My husband kept many secrets from me, many of which have resulted in my being sued and having to pay penalties throughout these months following his death. My future is being snatched away piece by piece.

Beyond the belief that my two precious children were meant to be born, I have no idea as to my purpose in life. Nothing seems to matter. My only comfort is knowing there are loving relatives who could raise my children, if necessary.

What drew me to this web site was the journaling aspect, which I happened to see mentioned in Health Magazine. I started journaling in January of this year, and have processed the main themes of my journals into several poems. These endeavors have helped me maintain my sanity throughout this nightmare.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Stephanie (StephanieinSF@aol.com)

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You have the devinity of gods, the purity of symbols, and the shortcomings of other mortals.

The mixture is potent.

Yasmin

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I have just received the Lord again. I've done this many times, but have never followed through with it. But this time, things are different! I am seventeen years old and have never felt any better. I've had rough times and I've had easy times. Now I know exxactly what to do do and say and when to say it. Signed: Muffy, Florida

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So if I am doing the right thing, why do I hurt so much? He was bad for me and I made him go - for the first time I chose me over someone else. But now all I want is to take it back and hear him say he loves me and it's all a mistake. When someone chooses you it fills you up. When they un-choose you, it leaves an empty sick place inside.

In the quiet though, when I let myself hear the voice which guides, it says just let go, please let it go. You have made room in your life for someone wonderful and now you only have to believe you deserve it.

I think that sounds worth working towards. T 

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I am thanking God for yet another outlet for my seemingly endless reservoir of dreams, thoughts, and overwhelming emotion. I thank God most of all for all the moments I am allowed to meet kindred spirits, as in this site. How absolutely wonderful that there is a forum such as this, and what comfort I have found here tonight in souls bared, and in confidences shared. I find myself hopeful, yet still somewhat bewildered by the spiritual quest I began approximately 6 years ago and am convinced I shall always be on this quest, albeit in different lessons. I feel that the journey itself is surely more important and fulfilling than the destination itself. *Marianne* 

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I have felt an aching in my soul for so long...I know that somewhere out there, true love awaits. I believe that my soul-mate exists, yet I have not met him. I get the distinct impression, both in my heart and in readings and horoscopes, that our paths may cross soon. I pray that I remain aware of all that comes to pass every moment so that I do not unwittingly let long-awaited love and happiness slip away. My heart literally feels as if it is about to burst, aching with the love I long to give to the one person whom it was meant for. I do not want to regret one moment of my life, or wake up to find one day that I had a chance at happiness and let it slip away. I feel as if everything in the world could fall away, as long as I was able to love to my full capacity, for eternity. I just wish it were happening in my life at this very moment, yet I know that all is revealed at the proper time, all according to His divine plan. How I wish I were in that moment now, in love and loved in return, for this love to really be THE ONE I've hoped for and dreamed about for so long. Until then, I shall be living my life while carrying this love in my heart and anticipating the glorious moment when I can share it all with that special, one-of-a-kind man. *Marianne*

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I have visited this site often. The feelings expressed are beautiful. Thank goodness there is a place for positive reflection on everyday living. Everything in my life was perfect. I was doing what I wanted to do. I volunteer/help with children and child issues for my area. I love it. I thought I had found my purpose. Then......In a few short weeks I became so ill. Ignoring the illness only made it worse. Now I'm forced to stay quiet and still (Not my style) so that I may recover. Why? I ask myself. Why did this happen now? I thought that what I was doing was important. Why have I been made to stop everything? I guess this is my time to reflect on my path. I need to learn to be quiet and still and listen to my inner self. I thought I was doing that, but obviously I was wrong. Obviously, I was running to fast. Now I sit and listen. I sit and read the words in this site. I am still learning, but this is a beautiful place to come and just....be. Thank you.

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Hi! This is Diariest... I am here to add a little note of what is going on with me. I have no diary and I am due for one I feel naked and I feel very uncomfortable without a diary. From this day forward I will not run out of Diaries I will continue to have a diary . BEcause it is who I am .And it is what I do.

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I have the made the bold and courageous move to follow my dream. I know deep inside my heart that I have made the right decision. I am honoring my authentic self. I have total faith that God and the Universe will take care of me.

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I am going through the most painful time of my life.I am thinking of divorcing husband I am a writer and I am gooin gthrough hell someone help me Write me at my web page http:Writerscloset.homestead.com

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Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I vow to cherish every moment of every day.

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Never ask anyone the question "What do you think I should do?" because only you know wht is right for you. cmj

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Today I am beginning to see the sunshine through the clouds. You could say I'm waking up to all of my blessings.

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Wow, I am thinking of thougts presented here today.

Life is worth living.

We are all connected to the light the source of goodness and truth.

peace be unto you all

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What an incredibly beautiful fall day it is today! I am going to go for a joyous walk. *Diarist*

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Remember to take a deep breath every time you see something beautiful. In time, you will learn to focus on the beauty in all things.

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Diariest--Journalers: Inspiration for writing is in life. A Wheelbarrow, a flower, a window pane and even the things we look past: like the window sill. Life is inspiration. Writers only notice the things that others over look; I've been noticing things for ten years. I am young. I have more to see. And when I don't see them--when something in me refuses to notice the little things, then I stare for hours at the big things and open my journal and write: "What do I want to write about?" I say, "I want to write about oceans and scents and mermaids. I want to write about broken homes and hearts and pin cushions. I want to write about a grandmother making an afghan or a child building a house out of popsicle sticks. I want to write about stick men who talk and teach me how to write." Try that. Write what you want to write about. But remember: no matter what shade it comes in, no matter how many words, how colorful or long or flowery: in the end, you are still writing about YOU, and how you notice things. Writing is all I have and I treasure it with my life. I will always treasure it. Without it, I'd crumble. If I don't write for three days, I get cranky. It is my free therapy; my channel; my listener and complainer. But what's more: I am writing to me about me, and only I know it. I hope everyone sees pleasure in everything they write, even if it's what Kafka wrote from time to time, plus countless others: "I have no heart to write today." Tomorrow you will. --CMR

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Hi! this is Diariest I am a old diary writer I have been writing for about 24 years And I am getting bored witht he same way of journaling BUt I will not stop writing in my journals,I just need some new ideas.Can anyone help me via-email me: Diariest@suite101.com And you can log on to my new exciting web page: www.DearDiary1.homestead.com/JournalingSecrets.html Log into it you may find some useful info

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i just stumbled onto this site, and i havent read yet what is about but i felt like venting. One day i'll be able to look in the mirror, breathe in the air, and learn to accept myself and live life once more, but the road inbetween is like the worse torture in the world. I've always gotten down on myself but my determination ofself un happiness has manifested it self physically and mentally to extreme points, i look and feel like garbage and nothing seems to help me, i don't even know what keeps me going except for falling asleep and dreaming and the wish that one day i'll be what i was a long time ago or just a version of my better self. Girlzrbad@hotmail.com Christopher

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Dear Christopher,

I pray that happier days find you soon. Perhaps prayer or some inspirational books would be of help to you at this time.

May God Bless You, Your Friend

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At night after I tuck my 3 year old twin daughters in bed and they fall asleep, there are times when I go in there room to watch them. I think they are the most beautiful children in the world and I thank God for the precious gift he has given me. It helps to take away all of the days troubles. Tammy Chitty

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Every day life presents opportunities for growth. We can choose a new path, or take a different road; or go off our own trail. Life offers unlimited chances for us. Our lives mirror what our thoughts create, we need to dwell in possibilties.

Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you. 2 Thessalonians:16

Sharone

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My thoughts today are sad. My father is ill, my brother's mother is ill, my partner's parents are ill.... I feel small and alone. Being a grown-up, taking responsibility, being the strong one is hard. I want to cry, but at the same time I seem unable to let go and weep. The wheel is turning and I want to jump off for awhile. 

Michelle

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The day is windy and winsome - perhaps a haircut awaits - or a lobotomy -

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I had given up....let go. In doing so, I opened the door. Inner self was waiting, building my life for acceptance. Little over 3 months ago, this started to emerge. From despair to joy. From hate to love. From judgement to forgiveness. From fear to acceptance.

I look eagerly for what awaits, I listen and love ..... Keeping my face to the light.

Thank you for the opportunity to share.

Laurie

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Pray for our country today, that the right man be elected to lead us into the next century.

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I will share the thought that this is a wonderful website and i thank the creators,editors,writers etc. who were involved. I have shared this site with some friends who are in need of a spiritual uplift. I think that in these times we are so wrapped up in everyday issues and other folks problems that we tend to forget about ourselves! So this is such a blessing to have something so positive and i just want to let you know it is appreciated! Thanks for letting me share. Angie, CA

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This is a day that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it. Feel the sun on your face... Dd not be in a hurry. Did you know where you are going too? I do not mean work, school or home. Why are we here? Just too hang out or perhaps there is a deeper meaning. Every step we take bring us closer towards a journey. A journey that has a beginning, and a end. There is a big picture, that I cannot fathom. We all have a part in that picture. These are some of my thoughts for today. I have faith in the Creator who knows the master plan.

Sharone 

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My thought today is how short life is and how easy it is to be swayed off the path when you're not paying attention. I am having a lot of intense realizations that I am letting life pass me by. I feel sad because I know better and should do better. My spiritual life ought to come before everything but I let is slide into the background. I've always tended to let people who don't have as much spiritual awareness as I do push me around, waste my time, manipulate my feelings, take my joy, etc. Mostly it's my family. I can't seem to let them go even though I know I must. God please help me. Time is so short. I have to get on with my life now.

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Life is hard when you can see a big piece of the big picture. Seeing where others are going (when they are going in the wrong direction) is very frustrating. Please God give me the wisdom and strenght and creativity to help them.

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Finding your own personal mission statement-or running from monsters- There are alot of things in our world and thoughts which function as "monsters". There was a monster at one government job I worked call R.I.F.F. (Reduction in Federal Forces) There is another kind of monster in my life right now that I cannot not label but the feeling of fear that monster's inspire is leering at me. \ But you know-some monsters just disappear when the lights are turned on-I think that just by taking the time to pause here and write-I just turned on a light. Feels better not running from monsters!

Hope somebody else out there finds a way to turn on a light and make it through another dark and monsterlike moment. Geneva

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I am very happy to have found this website-On for the first time ever. I am always looking for new and creative ways to express myself and look inward. I had a good day today-productivity is so important to me at this stage. I own my business and I need new ways in which I can express myself in a non-judgemental environment-THIS IS IT!! :)

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When one gets ill with a supposedly terminal illness like cancer doctors should not take one's hope away. Prayer and hope in the miracles that Jesus performs even today helps the victim to live in a more possitive way.

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Hi everyone...I feel so alone sometimes even though I am surrounded by so many wonderful and loving people. Every day I feel compassion for all those around me, and I make a genuine effort to see the good in everyone. I know so much how beautiful and precious this life is, I'm just going through a challenging period in my life...I need to be strong, but most of all I must believe in myself. Why am I having such a hard time believing in myself? I've devoted so much energy to my spiritual and personal growth, and I love myself for that, and I love who I am. Its just that I lately I don't feel a part of this world...and it creates confusion within myself. I'm continuously thinking about how beautiful life can be, and I wonder why everyone in the world can't see it that way...but at the same time, there is so much about the "real world" that I must learn to accept and integrate myself into. I never want to lose who I am...How can I find a balance between my spiritual self and the hectic world around me? 

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I started a new job four months ago. The pay is the best I have ever received. I want so much to last here. But lately I've been a nervous wreck. I'm afraid my nerves are getting in the way of my job. I have always been uncomfortable around people, and it takes me a very long time to warm up to them. I'm seeing a therapist to help me with my problem, but it takes time. I pray that I don't lose my job because of my fears. I wish I could make these feelings go away, I want so much for people to understand me. Everyday I wonder what they are thinking about me. Today I stated taking medication for my anxiety, I hope it's not too late. How I would love to tell my co-workers of my problem, if I knew they would understand and not judge me because of it. I want to tell them all to give me some time. Please give me a chance. That's all I ask. If I am given the chance I can do it. God, hear my prayers.

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hard work is taking the difficult option from the three available .yes, every problem comes with three options as solutions .no promlem is insurmountable it just requires hard work for a solution!!!!! rohit

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To the "Nervous Wreck" Journalist, I feel your pain. You must believe in yourself and learn to put your feelings before your coworkers. We all have insecurities in life. It doesn't matter what your coworkers think of you. What matters most is what you think of you. Smile. Tell yourself you're great! Because you are! And do your job with pride for the special soul you are and for the special gifts you bring into this world! You are a gift from God. Remember that!

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Just be your best, and let the Universe do the rest!

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My fiancee and I perform weddings in "Paradise." At least that's what we call the gorgeous Emerald Coast of Florida. We conduct ceremonies in Panama City Beach, FL (or home base) or travel anywhere on the coast from New Orleans to Charleston to ? Thus, the name of our website www.coastalwed.com. Your website is breathtaking. It seems a perfect venue for services such as ours. I don't really know where I'm going with this, except that I believe there is a mutual inspiration to share. Your thoughts and comments are most welcome! Best regards, Bobbie Wilson

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Kathleen, I am so grateful to have found this site. The support center that I volunteer for (New Hope Healing Institute found at nhhi.net) is putting together a writing group for survivors of childhood abuse and look forward to exploring some of your writings in preparation. Finding materials specifically geared for what we need has been difficult. Thanks, Kim

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"Two Questions, Two Answers 

Q. How long do we have? A. As long as it takes 

Q. How much do we get? A. As much as we need." Richard Stine

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Whatever journey we may be on...all that happens is for the good and growth of our soul. All who we encounter teach us more about about ourselves. Be not sad of endings as they open but one more door to your soul. Walk in and experience the wisdom waiting there. And always listen, listen to the voice of your soul which will always provide insight for your next adventure. In light and love, continue living, for those who have gone before.

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We must Be the Change we wish to See

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Today I feel strange - I enjoy being around him and he treats me so good but I feel that we are not right for each other at some times and at other times we are the only 2 people in the world that matter. He is not what my parents would pick for me but he is certainly special - do I really love him or the idea of being with him - isn't that love?

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I knew what I wanted but chose to do what I though was right but it wasn't and now I stand alone. I wish I could go back and fix what I have done but I know i'm now only left with this feeling of pain which I can't explain.] Diana

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People say not to ask others what to do because only you should know but I don't realize that I have even half the options I have entil someone else tells them to me. I have made many discoveries this way. ~D~

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These are my thoughts about life. Life is full of jubiliation and enjoyable when you think about some one who is close to you by heart and if that person is not with you then it becomes a tragedy.The situations get even worse when that person for no reason , just to give relief to his/her self does not give you proper response. and the things go on in that selfish and greedy way.

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Sometimes you have to do what you don't want to do to be were you want to be.

kinky rudy 

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I buried my brother 11/22/00. He was only 48 and died suddenly from a blood clot. The holidays will never be the same. Since he lived in another city, we only saw him on holidays and his laughter and smile made our time together so special. He was loved by so many and touched many lives. He will be missed but remembered with fond memories. He left behind a healthy 78yr. old mom, me at 53 and two other sisters at 40 and 39. He did not have any children. His wife will be lost without him. Every room in their home tells you he was there. This is a sad time for us all. I will look at life in a new way. Joan jlowder1@bellsouth.net

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everything happens for a reason.

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Dear Joan, My heart goes out to you and your family. May God bless you.

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For those who are confused or frightened, busy or torn, or simply lost or unsure in the complexities of daily life, always remember... 

"And still I tell you, one must have chaos in oneself to give birth to a dancing star." -Friedrich Nietzch

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This is a quote of a gem I read recently:

"You don't have to win the lottery to pursue your dreams. You need to start walking in that direction and let
circumstances, the environment and the universe support you. Then let it come." Maizie 

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Nov 26,2000 Today i am going through some trying times.Ive been seperated from my children for almost a year now, and the pain is getting great almost unbearable.Ive been asking their father for visits only to get, denied every time.So today at church there was a little boy and girl attending service and the children favored my children soo much that it brought tears to my soul not just my eyes.And with this pain in my heart my cries to the lord are more louder, desparate and meaningful because I know in my heart im not just going through to teach me a lesson.I know that my god has brought me closer to him for a reason but it still hurts,even as i write this page tears threaten to run down my face.So i know i have to be strong and hold on and Wait on the lord.One more thing i wanted to add is ,im very thank-ful i found this page since im at work with no one to talk to even though i wouldnt share this with anybody anyway,so this page has been a comforter to me tonite and pray that anyone else who may a comforter finds this page also. *And remeber gods loves you even when you dont love yourself*Africa.H 

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I could NEVER leave my child to be cared for by someone else. If at all humanly possible, I will do anything for my child. The child came from my womb, so how could I give my child away even if I were ill. I would find a way.

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There is nothing like that first cup of hot coffee in the morning and today I am thankful for it. simple pleasures

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With finals approaching/unprepared, working 2 jobs (1 full time/1 part time) and haven't had a day off in 3 months, not even a weekend. Why do I do this too myself. And, the inner voice told me 2 weeks ago to at least quit the part timer or wierd things would start to happen. 3 days later while driving on a service road, I went to sleep for about 5 seconds and ended up in the lane of incoming traffic/but that voice, that inward voice kept me on the planet a little longer. All praises due to God. And I listening now without having another brick thrown to get my attention Judie Graham-Davis

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I am grateful for this beautiful site to come and share with all of you. I am new here & just exploring around. Have journaled for many years and plan to continue for many more. Indeed, journaling is a sacred art form to be performed in your own sacred space. I believe I must be between journaling by hand and by computer LOL! Lately, I am finding so many, many beautiful sites in which to journal by computer that it is becoming very tempting! Love & Blessings, Sherry

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I have been becoming more and more aware that it is time to examine the role that material objects have in my life. It seems that the energy I used to use for creative purposes is now being used to focus on material objects and how to obtain them.

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